It's hard to leave one place for another
Or another for the one
And the mind plays games
I believe many minds of many people in society play
When they leave something that's deeply embedded in them
(Even if they deny it):
The mind searches for reasons that it's okay
It searches for blemishes in the place
It blocks out the true essential connection
In order to feel safe and confident and clean in the decision to go,
To not feel so confused or regretful.
But I don't want that.
I want my heart to be open
To receiving beauty everywhere
Even if it causes me sadness
Because through that tunnel of receiving beauty and receiving sadness
Is great love
For everything that's part of me.